Nearly-Dead Angelfish Perspective

I daydream a lot. Sometimes it helps me refresh, sometimes it gives me new perspectives to consider.



It is quarter before seven.

I found myself sitting in front of the aquarium watching the fishes as they swim around the glass box. My eyes are pinned on one of the young angelfish i bought just recently. It is not swimming it is just floating around. Its body is stuck on the surface and swirling around just like a leaf. It's not dead yet, it's still breathing. One of its eyes is punctured, guess the other fishes mistook it as dead and tried to eat it. One of its fins is struggling to keep him in balance, or keeping him from drowning of some sort. It's like it's in a state of stroke. Some of its fins are not swinging. It's like half of its body is dead. I don't know if its still eating. Its been like this for almost a week already.

This angelfish sure is strong-spirited.

I honestly don't know how to feel about it. I did wish it would just die to end its suffering, but part of me also says he can make it, get cured and swim normally again. However, his state right now obviously shows otherwise. I know some time this week, it's gonna give up. I'm quite surprised on how it survived this far. I thought it's not gonna make it but until now, it's still struggling to survive.

It's been my source of motivation right now. I know its quite odd, given it's condition but i can so relate my life with his. His unrelenting perseverance for life keeps me going as well. His spirit is so strong even death is deferred.

I think it is what I lack, his strong spirit and perseverance. If I really want to survive, I gotta have the nearly-dead angelfish perspective. This is what I'll incorporate and hopefully make a difference.

You might wonder whats this have to do with you, well, nothing really. I just wanted to share and its been ages since I last posted something in this blog. I've been busy and occupied, a lot of things gone unnoticed and abandoned and now is only the time I'm getting back on track and lemme tell you the path isn't smooth. It might not be easy but I'm pretty sure everything is gonna fall into their rightful places again.




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